bestfriend, I am sorry

Frustrate

God, I am so depressed , frus and fed up for being me!. I lose my friendship,
And got family problem. I miss my old me I miss the past<3 and I messed up so bad. I want my bestfriends back, mell and jeja. I am so sorry so sorry what I did wrong, I’ve nobody else now ,he left me like fuck and it does hurt too much.i taught I had him to be my side but well the things happened last Christmas. Currently, I just
need support from my besties, old besties. I wanted to say sorry but I guess
the time obstruct me to say to them. I tried so hard since 2009 and still now. I prayed to god cus I want them back, I need some advice a greater one. Please babes, give me some chance. I’ve no place to story to and to create my new life for this
2010!. Sorry again if I annoyed you about him, and broke your promises.
Again, I am sorry truly sorry , this time I realize the mistakes what I did. These days
I feel empty, sad and angry. I just don’t know what to do, I cried many times to fix
This problem but im weak and now ive to be strong and I am not gonna let this happen
Again cus its killing me. I cant even focus on anything I was trying to think of myself but I guess that is just too selfish!. I hurt my bestfriend and I need to say sorry and I am begging now with tears that I am sorry.