bestfriend, I am sorry

Frustrate

God, I am so depressed , frus and fed up for being me!. I lose my friendship,
And got family problem. I miss my old me I miss the past<3 and I messed up so bad. I want my bestfriends back, mell and jeja. I am so sorry so sorry what I did wrong, I’ve nobody else now ,he left me like fuck and it does hurt too much.i taught I had him to be my side but well the things happened last Christmas. Currently, I just
need support from my besties, old besties. I wanted to say sorry but I guess
the time obstruct me to say to them. I tried so hard since 2009 and still now. I prayed to god cus I want them back, I need some advice a greater one. Please babes, give me some chance. I’ve no place to story to and to create my new life for this
2010!. Sorry again if I annoyed you about him, and broke your promises.
Again, I am sorry truly sorry , this time I realize the mistakes what I did. These days
I feel empty, sad and angry. I just don’t know what to do, I cried many times to fix
This problem but im weak and now ive to be strong and I am not gonna let this happen
Again cus its killing me. I cant even focus on anything I was trying to think of myself but I guess that is just too selfish!. I hurt my bestfriend and I need to say sorry and I am begging now with tears that I am sorry.

Hunny

I MISS YOU !

how are you? hows ireland? hows grlfriends?
hows things? . gosh i havent talk to you in like
fucking ages!btw guys Lorna's her name.
I wanted to call you but no credit ,
btw i cant go on the website to reply
your email because i lose the address
. well, i just reply it here,
Im fine thanks, school's okay
not bad and the friends here
are amazing :)) they are so nice
and very pretty :o haha.
U should come here babe and
bring all the gangz haha,
i miss THEM<3>
was it you who called me
yesterday at 3 in the morning?
if its you, sorry that time i was sleeping
and my dad answered. hey, btw tell all the
girls that i say hiii and i miss yous :)

Keep this as a secret ?

I've got a secret.
It's on the tip of my tongue, it's on the back
of my lungs.
And I'm gonna keep it.
I know something you don't know.

It sits silence, eats away at me.
It feeds like cancer. This guilt could fill a
fucking sea.
Pulling teeth, wolves at my door.
Now falling and failing is all i know.

We all carry these things inside that no one
else can see.
They hold us down like anchors. They drown us
out at sea.
I look up to the sky, there may be nothing there
to see.
But if i don't believe in him, why would he
believe in me?

Hey you there!

HEY YOU!
I'm alya ,
fifteen
straight
I dont have a stereotype . Im everything kiid!

and very nice to meet you there.